Mother's Day

Today was Mothers Day. One of the best days on my life.
I dint expect much ... Probably that's why it was so good.
I got a shirt that my son made for me... It was wonderful... it was a flower made with his hand prints... It was so cute!!!!!!!
My sweet hubby got me a roses, chocolate flip video that i long awaited for...
It was so perfect. My son gave me all these gifts and said Happy mother's day amma I love you...
OOh my GOD that was enough for the day.....
We went to santa cruz and my son had a nice time. A old man told my shirt was vey cute...
What more would I ahve needed for a perfect Day..
All Thanks to my sweet hubby for making it no nice!

Winter...

Winter is here...
Winters all these years used to be so boring.... waiting for Uday to come back. Its more fun now as I can keep Avi inside and try to get him to play with me. I am surprised he is interested in books as he is. I wonder how many 18month old's do? I think how I was at this age, did I know anything about books? was I interested?. Its just fun to read to him-- he listens to me as though he understands everything and tries to copy my words. Its just lovely to see him trying to repeat evey word that come out of my mouth....
Playing with him has been so much fun as he understands and demands now..He knows when I get angry and tries to make my smile with his cute face... How naughty can he be? I have recently taught him to dosa, idle, upma and a few.. it's nice to hear him say i want dosa...
My recent challege with him was to move him from his milk bottle to sippycup... OHH man it was one of my worst experiences.. He completely stopped drinking milk for 2 weeks.. Wondering if were that difficult tooo...
Winter's good except for a few colds and nose blocks and fever and etc :)...

Diwali Again!!

Yes Diwali was yesterday and we did have a potluck.
And yeah it was not as bad as I thought. We had a festive menu.. and dressed up in indian cloths, it was more than I expected that we would enjoy.
Avi was very happy seeing the flower pot. he wanted to hold the fire itself for the kakarotthi(susurbatti). It was fun seeing him enjoy it.
i realise motherhood is about enjoying just seeing the smile on your kids face...
It was a lovely night with lamps and crackers. Hope we enjoy the same every year....

Diwali in USA

Diwali, just the word gets you so exited. But in US, I feel its more like an other day at a friends house having a potluck, taking about economy, work and burning a few fire crackers.
From the time I remember Diwali used to be so special, with holidays, sweets and family together. We used to have Lakshmi pooja at my place that used to go on for a hour or two. We would wait for that so we can statrt lighiting the crackers and eating the sweets. We used to decorate the hosue with oil lamps and burn crackers with all my cousins. Oh what fun it used to be..
I always wonder how Avi would celebrate diwali, will he atleast know why we celebrate Diwali or he might say its stupid to celebrate a festical because God killed some bad guy!
He might as well say mom you guys used to polute the environment so much..
Well this year I managed to get a few crackers, hope he enjoys it!

Work/Motherhood

Its been 18 months since my bundle of joy arrived on earth. I have been loving every minute of it. But the thought that I have been working full time is just killing me...
I tried hard to prioritize between work and baby, i never been able to do it or justify to myself . Should I really need work? is the question i ask myself everyday... Is it worth it? The thought of some one caring for him is just too much to take sometimes.... I feel my kid needs me now, not after 20 yrs when he is totally independent...

The look in his eyes when I drop him off is too much to take sometimes. But guess this is how life goes on..
I miss his hugs and kisses and his naughty smiles through out the day...